Second submission, and I absolutely adore all of your lovely bodies and souls! Thank you all so much for your inspiration!
US size 12/13
5’2, about 200 pounds
Mom and dad aren’t very proud of the way I have turned out. I HAVE gained weight, and I have had the tendency to be less active than they want me to be. I have insane stretch marks, and I may come around to posting them soon. They’re a major, major insecurity I have that I can not come to terms with, as I have not seen others with such extreme ones, but perhaps others have the same issue and I want to show you beauties that you’re not alone. Mom tells me they’re disgusting and that I am “growing” at an alarming rate, and that I will soon not fit my clothes because I am getting so “fat”, as she stated in a mocking, insulting tone. I do not wish to insult my mother, but of coarse, as all of you know, fat is not an insult in my book. Also, I’m not always one to wear makeup, depending on my mood, as I dress to impress myself and not others. Just last Friday, dad and I were sitting in the car and he looked over at me and told me, “Are you wearing any makeup?” I told him no and he looked over in utter disgust before stating “and that is why you don’t have a boyfriend” and “you look completely disgusting” and “you look like trash”. I burst into tears a few minutes later. I could tell he felt bad when he pulled over, but later that day I told him I was still upset and he simply stated that he was not apologizing for the truth. When I try to state that I feel beautiful with or without makeup, my parents fire back by stating that it is a hygiene issue and not a personal issue. I have been beaten senselessly by them for standing up for myself too much, have had things taken away, and have been accused of being insane, a recluse, a freak and a loser. I feel horrible that I have disappointed my parents, however, my weight and my body choices are my own. I suffer from depression due to their words, but thanks to you wonderful, beautiful people I have learned to accept my body. Although I wish I was skinnier, I am happy with my lifestyle of being “lazy” and eating “fat foods”. Quite frankly, they make me happy. Sometimes I look in the mirror and see a few neck rolls, and think, “Hell, am I ugly?” Then I remind myself that the most beautiful people are the people with confidence, with the knowledge of who they are and want to be.
Thank you guys so much. You have no-doubt saved me from myself and from going insane. I love you so much.